Friday, September 5, 2014

Anybody Else???

I haven't really been too happy lately. Over and over again, I feel like I am working hard to do things for people, to help out where I can, to be friendly and loving... yet, at the end of the day, I end up feeling tired and alone. Don't get me wrong, I love the opportunity to help someone else when they can't do something on their own. But it's hard when it feel like it's never enough. No matter what I do, no matter who I do it for, there's always something else. It never stops. At times I sit down and take a break, but that doesn't go over well. People need/want stuff done NOW. To even think about what is going on in someone else's life is too much when you feel like you need something. Who cares what's going on in the life of the one who you've asked to help you.

Sometimes I hate being looked at as someone who can do different things, who can fix something or figure something out. I wish I wasn't the one that people turned to when they were in need. People make me want to ask, "Have you tried yet? If you can't figure it out, then ask me. Don't ask me because you don't feel like trying."

I wish I could focus on myself and do something that I want to do without people second guessing why I don't have time to do what they want me to do. Maybe I just don't feel like it right now. Maybe I need a break. Maybe I want to have a MEANINGFUL relationship with someone instead of a relationship that is based solely upon what I can do for you.

We say that we're lonely because of social media and people being on their phones all the time. Maybe we're lonely because we don't really care about people anymore. Maybe we've reduced the people around us to a point of only being as valuable as what you can do.

Galatians 6:1-6 - Brothers and sisters, if someone is caught in a sin, you who live by the Spirit should restore that person gently. But watch yourselves, or you also may be tempted. Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. If anyone thinks they are something when they are not, they deceive themselves. Each one should test their own actions. Then they can take pride in themselves alone, without comparing themselves to someone else, for each one should carry their own load. Nevertheless, the one who receives instruction in the word should share all good things with their instructor.

Friday, August 15, 2014


I love the Church, but I really feel like we're stuck right now. We want to focus on certain issues, and we stand on those issues pointing fingers at people all the while forgetting about the holistic approach that needs to be taken by Christians.

I know there are certain issues that are predominant in today's society, but how do we allow ourselves to focus so much on a select number of issues (which usually are the issues that bother people personally), yet we don't hold ourselves accountable on the other things.

The main thing with Christianity is that we can do nothing to save ourselves. ONLY because
of the death of Jesus Christ do we even have a chance at being seen as holy and blameless in the eyes of God. We need to love Jesus; thus, we need to love others. Stop pointing fingers and start making a difference.


I'm sitting at Carmack while our car gets worked on and I've really been thinking quite a bit lately about some things that I should write about. One, why is appearance such a big deal in America? I've got the U of I athletic posters on the wall across from me, I see their uniforms and football helmets. I really like the new unis, but it's like everyone now is trying to keep up with Orgeon and their ever changing uniforms. And I'm not faulting the universities for updating their unis. They need to continue to look fresh and new because that gives athletes another reason to choose their school. But that gets back to my originial question. Why do we, the nation as a whole, have such an emphasis on our appearance? I fall into it too. I just wish it were different.

Check out this video on YouTube and you'll see exactly what I'm talking about.