I haven't really been too happy lately. Over and over again, I feel like I am working hard to do things for people, to help out where I can, to be friendly and loving... yet, at the end of the day, I end up feeling tired and alone. Don't get me wrong, I love the opportunity to help someone else when they can't do something on their own. But it's hard when it feel like it's never enough. No matter what I do, no matter who I do it for, there's always something else. It never stops. At times I sit down and take a break, but that doesn't go over well. People need/want stuff done NOW. To even think about what is going on in someone else's life is too much when you feel like you need something. Who cares what's going on in the life of the one who you've asked to help you.
Sometimes I hate being looked at as someone who can do different things, who can fix something or figure something out. I wish I wasn't the one that people turned to when they were in need. People make me want to ask, "Have you tried yet? If you can't figure it out, then ask me. Don't ask me because you don't feel like trying."
I wish I could focus on myself and do something that I want to do without people second guessing why I don't have time to do what they want me to do. Maybe I just don't feel like it right now. Maybe I need a break. Maybe I want to have a MEANINGFUL relationship with someone instead of a relationship that is based solely upon what I can do for you.
We say that we're lonely because of social media and people being on their phones all the time. Maybe we're lonely because we don't really care about people anymore. Maybe we've reduced the people around us to a point of only being as valuable as what you can do.
Galatians 6:1-6 - Brothers and sisters, if someone is caught in a sin, you who live by the Spirit should restore that person gently. But watch yourselves, or you also may be tempted. Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. If anyone thinks they are something when they are not, they deceive themselves. Each one should test their own actions. Then they can take pride in themselves alone, without comparing themselves to someone else, for each one should carry their own load. Nevertheless, the one who receives instruction in the word should share all good things with their instructor.
Sometimes I hate being looked at as someone who can do different things, who can fix something or figure something out. I wish I wasn't the one that people turned to when they were in need. People make me want to ask, "Have you tried yet? If you can't figure it out, then ask me. Don't ask me because you don't feel like trying."
I wish I could focus on myself and do something that I want to do without people second guessing why I don't have time to do what they want me to do. Maybe I just don't feel like it right now. Maybe I need a break. Maybe I want to have a MEANINGFUL relationship with someone instead of a relationship that is based solely upon what I can do for you.
We say that we're lonely because of social media and people being on their phones all the time. Maybe we're lonely because we don't really care about people anymore. Maybe we've reduced the people around us to a point of only being as valuable as what you can do.
Galatians 6:1-6 - Brothers and sisters, if someone is caught in a sin, you who live by the Spirit should restore that person gently. But watch yourselves, or you also may be tempted. Carry each other's burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. If anyone thinks they are something when they are not, they deceive themselves. Each one should test their own actions. Then they can take pride in themselves alone, without comparing themselves to someone else, for each one should carry their own load. Nevertheless, the one who receives instruction in the word should share all good things with their instructor.
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